People.com Celebrity Diem Brown on Her Hysterectomy: I Felt 'Gutted' Facing her third cancer battle, the MTV reality star tells PEOPLE about her new heartbreak By Michelle Tauber Michelle Tauber Twitter Michelle Tauber is the Senior Editor overseeing Royals coverage at PEOPLE. She has been covering the royal family for PEOPLE since 2000, including William and Kate's wedding, Meghan and Harry's wedding and the births of the royal children. Formerly PEOPLE's first and only Head Writer, she has written a record-breaking 250+ cover stories spanning celebrity, crime and human interest. A graduate of the University of Florida, she lives in Orlando. People Editorial Guidelines Published on August 27, 2014 02:05 PM Share Tweet Pin Email Photo: D Dipasupil/FilmMagic Even after she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer for the second time, Diem Brown never let go of her desire to experience pregnancy and childbirth. But despite going to extraordinary lengths to freeze her eggs two years ago, that dream slipped away on Aug. 17, when the MTV reality star, 34, underwent an emergency hysterectomy after learning her cancer had returned for the third time. “When I came to, they told me that they couldn’t save my uterus,” she tells PEOPLE in this week’s issue. “That was a blow. We’d fought so hard to keep it. Might sound silly to most, but it’s what made me still feel like a woman and gave me hope for a future. I felt empty … gutted.” In addition to a tumor blocking her colon, doctors found cancer in her stomach lining, and Brown now has a colostomy bag. A second surgery followed three days later due to complications from the first. “I was completely defeated, honestly,” says the recurring Real World/Road Rules Challenge contestant, who candidly chronicled her 2012 cancer journey in a blog for PEOPLE.com. But when her medical team explained how “touch and go” her second surgery had been, “it put things into perspective,” she says. “I might not have the ability to ever carry a child and I have this damn bag for the time being – but I’m alive.” Inside Diem Brown s Brave Cancer Battle • Reporting by MICHELLE TAN For much more on Diem’s cancer journey, pick up this week’s issue of PEOPLE, on newsstands Friday Bald Is Beautiful! Diem Brown on Her Emotional Photo Shoot Want more stories like this? Sign up for our newsletter and other special offers: sign me up Thank you for signing up!