"I need help," she tells PEOPLE of the pain of child sexual abuse and suicidal thoughts
Former Real Housewives of New Jersey star Danielle Staub tells PEOPLE she walked away after her stripping appearance and is seeking treatment for psychological problems rooted in childhood sexual abuse.
“I have addictions with love and low self-esteem, and I need help!” Staub, 48, says after photos of her dancing nude at Scores in New York appeared on the Internet.
“My low self-esteem derived from childhood sexual abuse has messed with my mind and self-worth, and over the years I thought about getting help but pushed it deep into the depths of denial,” she says. “For years I have had the suicide hotline on my cell phone and would like nothing more than to free myself from this constant pressure.
“Seeing how I have hurt myself and my family this time,” she continues, “I can no longer push it behind me.”
Staub says she was “coaxed” into signing the appearance with Scores by her past handlers, but adds, “I have to own my mistakes and can’t blame others.” She says she has since “walked away” from the deal.