The R&B star, who is sentenced to therapy, says, "I want to understand my feelings"

By Elizabeth Leonard
September 04, 2009 12:55 PM

While Chris Brown vows he’ll abide by all the conditions of his recent sentencing for assaulting Rihanna – including six months of community labor and five years’ probation – he’s eager to get the most out of the court-ordered counseling and anger-management classes.

“I want to understand my feelings,” Brown, 20, tells PEOPLE. “I want to find out what really transpired as far as me that night. Sometimes when you’re young you don’t know how to express [your emotions], so I think it actually would be helpful to talk to a counselor or to somebody who has an expertise in what those [feelings] are.”

According to Brown’s Aug. 5 probation review, the R&B singer “has already looked into some domestic violence programs, showing that he is taking some initiatives to address this issue.”

Explains Brown: “I wanted to take the counseling upon myself and just talk to someone. I just need to talk to someone. I wanted to understand the problem at hand.”

Brown tells PEOPLE he doesn t think he has an “anger problem,” but says he’s keeping an open mind. “If I do, I will work with my counselor and hopefully channel my anger into something like dancing,” says Brown, who insists he’ll never let himself lose control again. “I don’t think I would get that mad again. I want to be a man, so I have to be more responsible …. I’d rather walk away.”

For the full interview with Brown, pick up this week’s issue of PEOPLE, on newsstands now

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