“I think that being in love with my girlfriend is a big part of why I’m feeling so happy with who I am these days,” says Delevingne, 22, who also talks about her bouts with drugs and depression in the magazine. “And for those words to come out of my mouth is actually a miracle.”
“It took me a long time to accept the idea, until I first fell in love with a girl at 20 and recognized that I had to accept it,” she says of experiencing confusion over her sexuality starting at a young age, which added to the anxiety and depression she felt in childhood.
“Women are what completely inspire me, and they have also been my downfall. I have only been hurt by women, my mother first of all,” says Delevingne of her mother, Pandora Delevingne, who has battled a heroin addiction and is writing a book about it.
Though Delevingne, who will appear in her first leading role, as the brooding and beautiful mystery at the center of Paper Towns (due July 24), says she isn’t putting a label on her sexual orientation and adds she is also turned on by men.
“If I ever found a guy I could fall in love with, I’d want to marry him and have his children,” says Delevingne. “And that scares me to death because I think I’m a whole bunch of crazy, and I always worry that a guy will walk away once he really, truly knows me.”