The star's book will be released May 17

By Kristen Caires
Updated April 07, 2016 05:45 PM
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After shutting down former BachelorJuan Pablo’s token phrase: “It’s Okay” – and a short-lived engagement to former professional baseball player, Josh Murray – one-time BacheloretteAndi Dorfman is gearing up for the mid-May release of what she calls her “anti-self-help-book” It’s Not Okay.

“I am so excited, but so nervous,” Dorfman, 29, told PEOPLE of the release date while attending the Kindred Foundation for Adoption’s 2nd Annual Gala in New York this week.

“[The book is] like my first born child!” she jokes, “I am ready for labor, and May 17th is my due date.”

Dorfman previously told PEOPLE of her breakup with Murray that though it was public, it was “also extremely private.”

And now, It’s Not Okay will shed some light on what exactly went wrong.

“I wrote this book kind of unintentionally,” she said. “I journaled my break up and never intended to turn it into anything.”

But her friends soon convinced her otherwise – and she admitted to re-reading her journal and thinking, “this is some funny stuff.”

“It’s the stuff nobody talks about,” Dorfman said. “We all talk about a ‘happily ever after’, [but] most of us don’t work out – this is that story.”

“The good, bad, psychotic – You name it, it’s in there,” she continued.

The lawyer is currently “living the single life,” she told PEOPLE, adding “I’m not seeing anyone.”

Though she did admit that she’s on the look out for eligible bachelors, even while working on her fitness: “I don’t like running at all – I hate it,” she confessed.

But she works up the will to hit the pavement from her New York running trail.

“You forget you’re running – and there are cute guys that run on that trail!”

It’s Not Okay hits stores May 17.