“When me and Lamar were having issues, I decided to channel my energy into working out,” she says in the latest issue of the U.K. Cosmopolitan Body. “If I went out with my girlfriends, I would be hounded by paparazzi and made to feel more humiliated.
“The gym was my only refuge. I could put music on and dance around with my girlfriends and be silly.”
Still, Kardashian, 30, is proud of her curves, saying she’s always “had all this confidence” and has “never felt ‘fat.’ ”
She says she’s leading a healthier lifestyle for herself – not for the people who watch her on Keeping Up with the Kardashians or her social media followers.
“Now on my Instagram page people comment saying ‘I liked you better when you were bigger,’ ” she tells the magazine, “and I think, ‘Thank God I don’t live my life for other people because I’d be in a constant tug of war.’ ”
As for cosmetic enhancements?
“I’m not against plastic surgery – if you want to do a tweak, I’m all for it, but you have to love yourself first because no surgery is going to change your heart,” the reality star says. “It would have been so easy to get liposuction or whatever, but you have to be healthy to maintain that. I’ve always felt, ‘Wouldn’t it be great to accomplish that on your own?’ ”