The Bachelor says in his final blog he found true love amid "speculation and hate"
"It's a side that I saw throughout the journey that no one else did," the Bachelor says
"Our feelings for each other are real and genuine," Flajnik writes in his latest blog post
Flajnik blogs about the hometown dates and "the most difficult rose ceremony to date"
"My feelings for Courtney are strong," Flajnik blogs. "I don't want to let external forces get in the way"
Flajnik blogs about Puerto Rican dates, saying goodbye and why Nicki's divorce doesn't scare him
"I didn't realize that the women were so mean," Flajnik blogs about this week's episode
The Bachelor star blogs about the good, the bad and the emotional of Monday's episode
Ben Flajnik, the new Bachelor blogs for PEOPLE.com about his first night at the mansion