By Mia McNiece
Updated October 21, 2016 07:02 PM
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Anne Hathaway says when she accepted her 2013 Oscar for her performance in Les Misérables, she was not in the mood to celebrate, despite the huge smile on her face,

“I felt very uncomfortable,” the actress, 33, recently told The Guardian. “You win an Oscar and you’re supposed to be happy. I didn’t feel that way. I felt wrong that I was standing there in a gown that cost more than some people are going to see in their lifetime, and winning an award for portraying pain that still felt very much a part of our collective experience as human beings.”

The mother to 6-month-old Jonathan says she tried to hide her true emotions when accepting the award on stage in 2013 but it didn’t work.

“I tried to pretend that I was happy and I got called out on it, big time,” says Hathaway who faced criticism at the time for her phony demeanor on stage. “That’s the truth and that’s what happened. It sucks.”

But she adds she did learn an important lesson from that moment.

“What you learn from it is that you only feel like you can die from embarrassment, you don’t actually die,” she says.