We already knew Downton Abbey had the power to crack even the toughest “tough guy” exterior – see LeBron James‘ relatable frustration over missing an episode in Trainwreck – but P. Diddy just took Downton fandom to the next level.
In a BAFTA TV tribute to the series in honor of its upcoming final season, the rapper confessed that he has shed many a tear over the show (same, P., same) and even wrote frustrated fan mail after the death of his favorite character.
“I’m interested in history, kings and lords,” Diddy, 46, told BAFTA. “I watched episode one and got wrapped up in it. Then I found out I had a crush on Lady Sybil. I watched it every week to see her pretty eyes and discovered the show was excellent.”
Alas, Diddy’s love for the youngest of the three Crawley sisters was not meant to be.
“When she died, it was devastating to me,” he shared. “I was angry and wrote to the creators saying it was uncalled-for and stressful.”
Unfortunately, the Grammy winner’s troubles weren’t yet over.
“Then when Matthew Crawley died, it was straight tears in my house,” he said, adding that Matthew’s “plight as an outsider coming in, being hit with a fortune and having to figure it out, reminded me of myself.”
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Diddy also praises the show’s “incredible” writing and the cast’s immense talent, and he expressed his understandable displeasure with the series’ looming conclusion.
“I’m not happy the show is ending. We have to do something about it,” he solemnly said.
Fingers crossed for a Diddy-led Kickstarter campaign for another few seasons of the hit show – but only on the condition that he gets to write and star in any new episodes.
Downton Abbey returns for its sixth and final season Jan. 3 on PBS Masterpiece.