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After breaking the news to his children and step-daughters, Bruce Jenner discussed his journey with the woman his transition affects the most on Monday’s Keeping up with the Kardashians.
The Olympian met with ex-wife Kris Jenner during the second part of E!’s About Bruce Special, and the couple got angry, cried and finally embraced after the intense conversation.
“You’re an amazing woman. We’ve had so many great moment together, 23 going on 25 years years of great moments together,” Bruce, 65, began. “They still live inside me. They’re still part of me. I don’t want to let that go. But I’ve got a struggle in my life. … In so many ways, I’ve lived my entire life running away from me and who I am.”
Kris, 59, replied that she felt “confused,” saying she didn’t know the extent of Bruce’s plans when they first split up in October 2013 and that he took out his frustrations with his identity on her.
“I think you shut me out a long time ago. You were angry, which made me angry,” she said.
“You know you treated me badly those last four, five years of our marriage,” Bruce shot back.
“No, you were just very, very angry to the point where we just had to separate and then get divorced,” she replied tearfully. “You never said this was going to be the end result, ever.”
Kris explained that she knew Bruce cross-dressed when he “got that urge” but that he never told her about his hormone treatments. Her main frustration, she said, was that he hadn’t been honest during their marriage.
Bruce apologized for not being more open with Kris and for hurting her, and Kris started sobbing harder.
“I just miss Bruce. And that’s going to take me a minute to mourn that relationship,” she said. “You think you’re going to grow old with somebody, and they drastically change over the course of just a few years.
“All I have really is my memories. I look at pictures of you and the kids, and I’m really sad because I feel like you died. You know, Bruce died. And it’s really hard for me to wrap my head around.”
“I still love you, baby,” Bruce told her tenderly. “Is there anything I can do now to make it better for you?”
Kris asked him to “just live the happiest life you can live.”
“That’s all I care about,” she said. “And that you can find the peace you’ve been looking for for so long.”
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Keeping Up with the Kardashians airs Sundays at 9 p.m. ET on E!
Editor’s note: Per Bruce Jenner’s request, PEOPLE will continue to use male pronouns until otherwise instructed.