“It was really hard for me,” Fletcher tells PEOPLE exclusively. “But when I got home [from Jamaica, where Higgins proposed to Lauren Bushnell], I took a couple of weeks to myself to think about everything.
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“The conclusion was that it happened, I was lucky to have gone through that, I learned so much and now I know what I want and I know what I deserve.”
As for her first chat with Higgins in four months? “I know that was a tough situation for both of us,” says Fletcher, 25. “I was super nervous but he explained it well and I have closure. I’m friends with Lauren and I think the world of Ben, and seeing them together, it made a lot more sense than I thought it would be.”
Continues Fletcher: “Watching it back, I kind of had to relive it and I definitely remember how sad I was. But I’m not bitter and I’m not angry. Ben followed his heart. Even though it didn’t work out, it still was a great relationship and I learned a lot from him.”
Now, Fletcher says she hopes to find “someone who makes me laugh, someone who is kind and genuine and adventurous.”
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Says the real estate developer: “I want to find my husband. I want to find the person who will complete me and who will love me as much as I love him. I’m more ready than ever!”
As for whether she’d utter those three little words to more than one suitor?
“I guess I’ll see when I get there,” says Fletcher. “I understand loving two people at once but I definitely will make sure that it’s exactly what I’m feeling before I say it. Because I know what it’s like to have that said to you and then to potentially be disappointed and let down. So I’ll be cautious of that.”