Christina Aguilera got real about one of her past romances.
The tune, off Aguilera’s Stripped album, is about forbidden love and the obsession she builds over a Latin lover.
Turns out, that lover — whom Aguilera dated, but didn’t name — was actually gay. “It was heartbreaking because I found out he played for your team, not mine,” Aguilera, 37, explained. (She told MTV News in 2002 that the track was inspired by Jorge Santos, her dancer whom she dated for two years.)
“He’s gonna see this, he’s gonna be mad,” competing queen Vanessa Vanjie Mateo noted.
“I hope so, girl” Aguilera remarked.
Elsewhere in the episode, Aguilera talked about the man who inspired another Stripped track: “Fighter.”
“Was that about someone?” asked contestant Monique Heart. “Girl you read him for the back row. When you said, ‘You tried to take a joy ride and came down in flames,’ I said, ‘Oooh.’ She read him.”
“Of course it was! He deserved it,” Aguilera, replied, laughing.
This wouldn’t be the first time Aguilera called out a man who wronged her in one of her songs.
On her 2006 album Back to Basics Aguilera referenced Scott Storch, who produced the singer’s 2002 album Stripped, in a song called “F.U.S.S.” — which is widely known to stand for “F— You Scott Storch.”
Although in the song Aguilera mentioned the pair had written many songs together — including “Fighter” and “Can’t Hold Us Down” — she added that their relationship is “a bridge that’s been burned” and that she had “moved on” without him musically.
“Still got the album out, ha!” she said at the end of the track.
Aguilera went on to give the season 10 hopefuls advice on how to keep their heads held high in show business, even under the most trying circumstances.
“Just keep living. I am so in awe and inspired by everything I’m seeing today,” the singer said. “We all have come from some journey. I’m sure we’ve all had a painful place and a struggle or something. And I think that’s really relevant. And that’s a part of my music and a part of where I came from.”
“Being taking advantage of [by the guy for whom I] created ‘Fighter,’ growing up in this business at a young age, you can just imagine being around older men a lot and dishonest people. And it’s really hard,” she remarked.
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Aguilera also added that while it’s easy to shut down, it’s important to remember all the good people and things in your life.
“Once you obtain a certain level of success, you can become jaded and you can see certain people around you change. And that can make you change and feel guarded or shut down and weird. But I think as long as you keep remembering who you are as a person — and keep remembering the good and the good around you — then nothing can stop you,” she continued.
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