Marco Saldana has no regrets.
“I tried to talk him out of it,” the Guardians of the Galaxy star, 36, tells InStyle in its July issue, on newsstands Friday.
“I told him, ‘If you use my name, you’re going to be emasculated by your community of artists, by your Latin community of men, by the world.’ But Marco looks up at me and says [she puts on his Italian accent], ‘Ah, Zoë, I don’t give a sheet.”
Saldana goes on to talk adoringly about her artist husband (formerly Marco Perego) and their 6-month-old twin boys, Bowie and Cy.
“I come from a very physically eclectic family,” she says. “Black. Latin. Lebanese. We were all colors, but we never talked about it. We all ate the same food. I look at Cy, and he looks almost Cambodian. And I look at Bo and it’s like, ‘Oh my God, our little pharaoh.’ ”
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And what’s it like being outnumbered three-to-one by males in her family now?
“I call it absolute irony,” she says, “and I also call it a purpose: It was meant to be that way. It’s not like I’ve had issues with men; I’ve always just been independent to a fault. I’ve always believed it’s my birthright to behave as an equal on this earth and to be entitled to everything and anything.”
She adds: “That said, I’ve had my experiences of heartbreak when it comes to choosing partners who wanted to be equals but didn’t have the ability to actually reciprocate the respect.”
But now, even as she gets back to work, Saldana says she’s found absolute peace with her husband and babies.
“Since I’ve been with Marco, I’ve been lowering my guard,” she says. “Finally, when we had our boys, I looked at my husband and I realized: I was meant for you, and you were meant for me. I’ve always felt comfortable around men as long as they were friends. Now I finally feel comfortable with my lover. I don’t want to be separate. I want my church. I want to live inside the religion of our own little family.”