It wasn’t the cheating. As painful as that was, it happens all the time in relationships between young people.
“S––– happens, you know?” Pattinson tells British Esquire in its September issue about Stewart’s fling with director Rupert Sanders. “It’s just young people it’s normal! And honestly, who gives a s–––?”
Well, lots of people did. And that, says Pattinson, was indeed difficult.
“The hardest part was talking about it afterwards. Because when you talk about other people, it affects them in ways you can’t predict,” says the actor, 28. “It’s like that scene in Doubt [the 2008 film in which Philip Seymour Hoffman plays a priest suspected of inappropriate behavior], where he’s talking about how to take back gossip? They throw all those feathers from a pillow into the sky and you’ve got to go and collect all the feathers.”
It’s been two years since that scandal, and more than a year since the couple split for good after a brief reconciliation. And Pattinson continues to move beyond his Twilight days – personally and professionally.
For one thing, though still “a relatively solitary person,” he’s learned to deal with fame better, and isn’t as bothered by the paparazzi.
“There was a time, three years ago, when I didn’t know where to live where I wouldn’t be trapped in my home, you know?” he says. “But I worked it out. It’s not that big a deal in the end. Half of it is in your head.”
He’s also been taking challenging roles in movies from auteurs David Cronenberg, Werner Herzog and Anton Corbijn. That’s been fulfilling, though not without its moments of anxiety – like when he had to film a sex scene with Julianne Moore for Cronenberg’s Maps to the Stars and things got strange.
“I noticed I was sweating. Like really heavy sweat,” Pattinson says. “I remember trying to catch the drops as they fell onto her back. It was weird. Huge splashing drops. At one point she turned around and said, ‘Are you all right?’ ”
Pattinson is indeed all right. “I know what makes me happy, if I’m feeling down: doing things that make your friends jealous,” he says of life these days. “It really works! I just say, ‘I’m working with David Cronenberg,’ and they go, ‘Oh really?’ I love that.”