A 22-year-old English woman is on a mission to use her struggle and recovery from anorexia to inspire others to love their bodies.
After being diagnosed with anorexia at 14 and reaching her lowest weight of 65 lbs., Megan Jayne was institutionalized and hospitalized for the disease. But after being “weight restored,” Jayne says she still wasn’t recovered.
“I tripled my body weight in a year, and was thrown right back into a world of diet talk and airbrushed ideals, in a newly chubby body that I was disgusted with,” she writes on her body positivity website. “My weight never relapsed back down to dangerously low, but my mind never truly recovered.”
You can get there. Maybe right now you can't see a way out. Maybe you've been dragged into the depths of self hatred, and you just can't see a way back up. We've all been poisoned by a world that profits from us hating our bodies, and if they had their way we'd be tied down forever. Paying for their impossible idea of perfection with our money, our self esteem, our happiness. But I know that you can break free. Because I did. You just have to believe that you can. You have more strength inside of yourself than you will ever know. You are powerful. Powerful enough to rip off those chains holding you down, and refuse to believe that you aren't good enough any longer. You've spent enough of your life shackled by other people's expectations. It's time to be free, and embrace the beautiful body positive warrior that's been in you all along. If this girl can get there, I know that you can too. 💜💙💚🌈🌞
Jayne says it took stumbling across women on Instagram in “every shape and size unapologetically loving themselves” to shake her from her obsession over being thin.
“Slowly, reluctantly, something dawned on me: I just could not live the rest of my life hating myself. I didn’t want to diet forever,” she writes. “I didn’t want to be brainwashed by the medias unattainable ‘ideal body’ lies any longer. Deep down I knew that thinness would never actually equate to happiness, despite what we’re taught.”
One day you'll see. The moments of your life that you've missed. The memories that were made to light up your mind with smiles in vivid colour. But instead, they are dull. They were dulled. By a mind that could never truly live in that moment, too consumed by the ever present mirror forcing your reflection to the forefront of your thoughts. You cannot truly live with that mirror, looming over all that you do, and all that you are. One day you'll see, that it was inside you all along – the power to smash the mirror into pieces too small to ever pierce through your self esteem again. One day you'll see, that you could have lived unburdened by lies about your worth residing in your reflection. That you could have laughed with your whole body shaking. That you could have devoured every bite without shame. That you could have lived every moment, for yourself. One day, you will see. And I can't think of a better day than the one you're living right now. 💜💙💚🌈🌞
Now the self-proclaimed “fan of belly roll love” uses her website and Instagram to show off her curves and set an example for others who may be struggling with body image.
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“You’ve spent enough of your life shackled by other people’s expectations,” she captioned a photo contrasting her weight before and after her recovery. “It’s time to be free, and embrace the beautiful body positive warrior that’s been in you all along. If this girl can get there, I know that you can too.”