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DeAnna Stagliano is not looking forward to one major milestone in her son’s life — his future wedding!
“I don’t know what it is about having a boy … I guess it’s because I’m the woman in his eyes right now, and sometimes I think about when he has his first love, like, I will never hold that part of him,” she exclusively tells PEOPLE in this week’s issue about her son Austin Michael. “Right now I am his first love. He looks at me and I’m it. I’m the woman. I’m all that he needs, physically and emotionally.”
“So I think about when he falls in love for the first time or when he gets married [that] I will no longer be that part and it has this mixed emotion,” continues Stagliano, 35. “I will cry.”
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The reality star, who married Stephen Stagliano in 2012, also has one daughter, Addison Marie.
“I think it makes me sad and makes me so happy at the same time,” she explains. “It makes me sad, because I will no longer be No. 1, but it makes me happy because I will know he will love immensely.”
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“He will love like I love,” Stagliano added. “I have this mixed emotion about it, but I think about that a lot when he’s starring at me.”
—With BRITTANY KING